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  1. I almost never comment on blog posts, but I’m so glad this popped into my Pinterest tonight.

    Somewhat like you, I have some indirect experiential knowledge of Gothard and the like – not quite as in-depth as yours but it impacted me deeply.

    The last 20 years has been a time of what I at one point even called deconstruction, but since then I’ve come to avoid that term, because I don’t feel it adequately describes the process. Like you, I’ve found another way, and come out with my faith stronger and fuller and deeper.

    I hope you will take a chance to read this post I wrote a few years ago:

    Call it deconstruction. Call it doubt. Call it weeding. Call it whatever you want. But for a time there, my hands were dirty with the hard work of pulling it all up by the roots. All the legalism. All the rules and regulations. All the spiritual abuse. All the truths couched in bad motivation.

    But rather than throwing the baby out with the bathwater (aren’t you tired of that metaphor anyway?), I threw all the faith-junk in the compost pile. My compost pile was protected with the chicken wire boundaries of a loving husband, parents, and church family. Every time someone reached out to me, listened to me, or prayed for me – it was like a cup or two of compost starter was added to the pile. Every once in a while I would read a book or an article or hear a sermon and hit the compost pile with a pitchfork – turning all the junk over and over and over and over. Those who loved me, and told me “come as you are, but don’t stay there,” were like the sun and rain melting the waste down into messy goodness that would help me grow again.

    So my faith deconstruction story became a faith reconstruction story. Or as a favorite song of mine says, “I’ll build an altar with the rubble that You’ve found me in, and every stone will sing of what You can redeem.”

    Because the tree grows on the fallen forest. If it died, it can live again.

    Excerpt from Compost piles, faith deconstruction, and Joshua Harris:
    http://beautifulinhistime.com/2019/07/28/compost-faith-deconstruction-joshua-harris/

    Thank you for speaking truth.

    1. Thank you so much for sharing your post with me, my friend. I took some time to read it and really enjoyed your metaphor. Even more, I’m so encouraged to read that instead of letting go of faith, you chose to untangle things and found a safe place where you could be renewed. That is so wonderful!! I need to look up that song now. I’m so glad you took the time to leave a comment. I pray that God will continue to draw you, encourage you, strengthen you, and that you go from glory to glory with Him!

  2. Very profound, and yes what we must do with every teaching. Our roots must go deep beyond a leader and into God himself.

    1. Amen! Yes – we have to remember that leaders are still fallen man – and sometimes very flawed. We can learn and glean from them but we must be wise Bereans.

  3. A very interesting read as my parents also studied with Bill Gothard for a while, then left.

    1. Thank you for stopping by to read this post and commenting.

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